We are dropping like flies here.
Biting the dust!
The boys have been down all weekend, and me... I joined the "party" later on.
Depression and anxiety fighting smoothies
I'm sleeping bad, if I sleep at all, and I look like shit. Actually I almost look sick again, and I don't like that.
My BF and I went to a special store in town today, where they sell all kinds of vegetables, spices etc. I wanted to buy some vegetables for smoothies.
Go to sleep - start of the bedroom decor
I have currently divided some indoor plants, and the little new plants I'll use in my bedroom as new decorations.
I let it take time, to do the work, I'm doing a lot of thinking meanwhile.
Finding motivation...
Everyone knows you'll feel much better afterwards, blah.. That doesn't really help me right now.
I am trying to run away
I still have the fever, and I'm experiencing the need to run away, to dream, to not be a part of this.
But it's different now, than it was back in time.
Go to sleep - aroma therapy
In the popular tv-series Criminal Minds, they always say, the strongest link to memory is scent!
So perhaps aroma therapy is worth a try.
Sometimes there is a simple explanation
That's what we sometimes seem to forget. Definitely me.
There was in fact a simple explanation for my tiredness (other than lack of sleep), we are simply sick here.
Off day
I'm having an off day. I'm not in a mood to do anything.
My feelings are weirdly mixed up.
I'm tired, but can't really sleep.
I want to do something active, starts, but then I can't seem to find the motivation to continue, cause it doesn't really matter...
Going to the dentist
One common fear us going to the dentist.I've been so scared, I had to go with anastetic, which is very expensive, not without risk and certainly effects your whole body.
Social life is drowning in gadgets
What's wrong with this picture?
Everyy where you go, it's always the same.
No wonder we all have changed into emotional shut-in's. When we stand right next to each other, we prefer the company of the newest technology.
Go to sleep 9 - in one minute 4-7-8
There's a method, you can find all over the web:Fall asleep in less than 1 minute.
Perfect, there's my long awaited solution to many problems... So of course I tried it out.
The method is developed by Dr.Andrew Weil, M.D and it's simple:
I am drowning in financial uncertainty
You can't buy happiness.
Absolutely true.
And I remember, that I was not more happy like that, when I had my work - but there was certainly some problems, that didn't drive me crazy back then, as they do now.
Go to sleep 7 - Stay awake
Okay now she has finally lost it!
Nope, I actually haven't
No sleep for 4 days and nights makes me desperate!
No sleep for 4 days and nights makes me desperate!
Mr. Sandman is not bringing me any dreams.
What to do?
Go to sleep 8 - Bedroom decor
Assesories alone can make a big difference. But again, the amount and type that's works for me, does not necessarily work for you.
However accessories can be easily changed, and with a little bit of thought, it's easy to change the rooms entire feeling.
Social anxiety and crowds
I surprised myself today. In a good way, I better add.
Normally crowds and I don't go very well together, so it was a bit of suspense, I attended my daughter's show at school today.
Depression is lurking - I wonder why
Why? I want to know why?
I have turned and twisted every option in my mind, and I don't find any obvious reasons of why my depression is beating me up right now.
Depression is lurking
What is it, what's wrong with me?I know, the way out of depression does not follow a straight line upwards, but this is ridiculous.
I'm right back, where I started.
Psychology a new science
When I talk about "my" method of handling my disease, it's something I "developed" thru a long time.
Much of research, thinking and speculations, not to mention suffering, experience and hard work, has led to the place, where I currently am.
A good nights sleep is the best cure
I couldn't fall asleep last night - and getting more and more annoyed by that, I expected a really bad day today.
But somehow I must have fallen asleep, and had a great sleep in fact. I didn't last for long, 4-5 hours the most, but it was enough to make me feel much better.
The sound of... Hospital
Could you all please SHUT THE FUCK UP.
I'm sitting in a waiting room, listening to the shuffling of shoes against the floor, sometimes steps from hard heals walking, disappearing.
Home from the Hospital
Moms surgery went fine but took a lot longer than expected.
I'm so stressed out, I'm wearing my feelings so exposed, that any little spark might make me ignite.
I couldn't get me feelings off my chest, my phone was already running low on power, so one of my "escapes" like writing, was out of the option.
I'm so tried I'm about to collapse, I can't even proof read, but I think my blog-manager will accept this anyway. I really need to try to shake that feeling of Hospital off me, so TTYL.
Going to the hospital with mom - again
"Are you going with me to the hospital?"
Sigh, now they can use me.
Last year at Christmas there was one excuse, but at New Years Eve she would come. And she did.
Then of course she cancelled at Christmas again this year, but wanted to come at New Years Eve.
And then she cancelled New Years Eve.
Wonderful.
Off day - go away
One thing I love about 1st of January... Nobody does anything.
And then I'm suddenly the most active of all! :-)
No, I enjoy this day feeling all the stress leaving the body.
And there's a lot of stress to drain, Christmas and New Year guests and visits is a true challenge for people like us.
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