I haven't been at a computer for several days. Mom and I have been to the Hospital for her cancer surgery.
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Showing posts with label Surgery. Show all posts
At the Hospital with mom
I haven't been at a computer for several days. Mom and I have been to the Hospital for her cancer surgery.Surgery today
More Hospitals, but this time I finally got thru the waiting list after 6 months!
I dunno... I didn't really think about it, I think I've gone totally numb.
Now we know it is cancer
I was tired, and the trains schedule didn't really fit my appointments. Never the less I arrived at the Hospital early, which I was prepared for.
Now what(?)
I've been to surgery several times, and for bed rest even longer to heal.So even though my surgery isnt all done, I had to start rehabilitation program at the Hospital, to be strong enough for next surgery.
Depressing in itself perhaps, but I try to look at it as positive as I can.
I'm on sickleave, I can't work and I'm not allowed to. It's for sure a challenge to make ends meet.
I would love to help my children out financially since they study, but they manage as well as I did without help from my mom and dad.
I would love to help my children out financially since they study, but they manage as well as I did without help from my mom and dad.
My memory is a problem, and as for now, I would not be able to work efficient, and I hate that.
Update 2018: fysical health
Afterwards I see the symptoms... I was getting more and more tired, but couldn't sleep. Sometime I went to work after no sleep in 4 days.
My son told me, I should not be driving, when I was so tired, it's dangerous.
I couldn't lift 2 buckets with 10 litres in each bucket anymore. First I only could do one, after that none at all.
I felt useless, I started to have an unclear vision. I didn't feel hungry, but stressed out.
I should move out of my huge house. I should take care if the children and not let them see, that I didn't feel okay.
One day I almost fainted on my way down the stairs with my laptop in the bag. I simply didn't have the strength to move myself or any stuff. My blood pressure was skyrocketing, and I felt bad.
My son told me, I should not be driving, when I was so tired, it's dangerous.
I couldn't lift 2 buckets with 10 litres in each bucket anymore. First I only could do one, after that none at all.
I felt useless, I started to have an unclear vision. I didn't feel hungry, but stressed out.
I should move out of my huge house. I should take care if the children and not let them see, that I didn't feel okay.
One day I almost fainted on my way down the stairs with my laptop in the bag. I simply didn't have the strength to move myself or any stuff. My blood pressure was skyrocketing, and I felt bad.
Update 2018: Mental health, PTSD
Let's talk about the new diagnose - I have 2, mental and now fysical.
MENTAL:
Well, to try something "new", I got yet a new diagnose.
PTSD.
My first reaction was "I'm not a soldier and have never experienced war."
Well, to try something "new", I got yet a new diagnose.
PTSD.
My first reaction was "I'm not a soldier and have never experienced war."
But this doctor simply put THE diagnose that fits in 10 minutes.
Back from the hospital I read about it a lot, it fits perfect.
"Under severe stress for several years".
Back from the hospital I read about it a lot, it fits perfect.
"Under severe stress for several years".
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