Will I make it out alive?

Yeah, despite my training and work with my own limitations caused by anxiety, depression and PTSS, I also have days like this, where I just don't see any other options, that the obvious stated.

This piece of music calms me down a bit, when sadness has the upper hand - to hear another person asking the same question, as I ask myself. Will this be the cause of my death(?) What's my future going to be like, if I can't work?

I guess the lyrics speaks for themselves, and I know many of you guys are tormented by the same lack af vision for the future. Just like I fo right now.

Don't start any alarming systems- it's a very very bad day, but I got my friends, (CC and Farmer)

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I'm trapped

I'm sorry for not writing much. I'm really not in the mood to write about feelings or thoughts or nightmares or lack of sleep.

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You are disgusting

Thank you very much, now I know, why I feel such lack of love around me.

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Who can you really count on?

I often get emails from you guys out there, who feels totally alone and abandoned.

How do you move on, when you feel neglected, overlooked or even ignored?

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I can not breathe in clutter and dirt

I've had this feeling for quite some time: not being able to get enough oxygen.

It's a normal feeling during anxiety attacks, but I have never felt it constantly. But now I do, most of the time.

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Social event with anxiety and depression as date

We're going to dinner and such with my boyfriends company.

That's a challenge in itself, I really don't like to be in a room filled with people, I don't know, but normally I can handle it.

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Smoothies and au revoir to bad mood

I've been so sad, angry, tired and irritable lately, that I thought winter depression or seasonal affective disorder had hit me.

I refuse to be so negative all the time, it doesn't make anything better anyway. So I'll force myself into a better mood and then: let's have a talk about smoothies.

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Merry Christmas with mixed feelings

I know, there's a Christmas break in my writing, but as everybody else, I have been very busy, a bit stressed and confused.

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I sleep and miss out on activities

I feel like time and thereby my life is passing by, while I'm sleeping or especially trying to sleep.

I contrast to the feeling of being left out and unappreciated, I also hate that my sleep is so unstable, that I can't make a real plan for next day. Everything depends on how I slept that night, if I got any sleep at all!

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Feeling alone and rejected

By now I've tried SO many times to feel forgotten, unappreciated and unwanted.

I would think, that I have got used to that by now, but I never really totally do.

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Now we know it is cancer

I was tired, and the trains schedule didn't really fit my appointments.
Never the less I arrived at the Hospital early, which I was prepared for.

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I wonder how long this trip is going to take

Walks on the lonely never ending hallways of the Hospital late in the evening...

Muffled sounds far away from other people in the same situation.

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Research: Psycopath, Narcissist, Empathy Disorder

At the second session, my Psychologist told me, that I look inside for a solution to whatever happened.

I give myself the fault of everything that has happened to me, and that's first of not healthy - secondly he told me - and under stressed that - It is not my fault that another person is treating me badly.

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