Happy New Year or what?

It's always with both sentimentality feelings and hope (and a pinch of fear) I celebrate  New Year. When we're sick, we all know, what we hope for.  But after so many years, I'm scared to hope for better times. I've been disappointed each time, so why hope?...

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Go to sleep 5 - The bed

After Christmas I realized, that maybe lack of sleep its not only caused by mental illness or insomnia. Some people can sleep anywhere! Even leaning against a tree or resting on the floor in Frankfurt Airport! I can't! ...

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Go to sleep 4 - Close your eyes and watch a movie

Sometimes thoughts can be pounding around in my head so bad, I don't even get to finish the first thoughts, before the next is interfering. When I can't get rid of the pink elephant in the room, I can't fly with Peter Pan, it's impossible for me to focus....

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Merry Christmas with mixed feelings

I know, there's a Christmas break in my writing, but as everybody else, I have been very busy, a bit stressed and confused....

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Go to sleep 3 - Go Flying with Peter Pan

I'm sure "the wise men" would put this method into a box and label it dissociation, meditation or another -ion.  In this case; does it really matter(?)...

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Go to sleep 2 - Nature medicin

Not everything is better, because it has passed a laboratory during production.  Actually I can't imagine why it should be better "served this way." The opposite seems more likely....

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Go to sleep 1 - Medication

I haven't been able to sleep for a while now, so when my methods is not working for me, I change it to another.  What options do I have(?) Sleep medication seems to be a common choise, so let's get that discussion done as the first task, to get that out of our system. ...

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When depression hits

Depression and anxiety often goes hand in hand. We talk about depression a lot, like it was just a state of mind: " oh I feel so depressed today." Oh you do, do you? No you actually don't, cause when you say it like that, you have not the faintest idea of what depression means or feels like....

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I sleep and miss out on activities

I feel like time and thereby my life is passing by, while I'm sleeping or especially trying to sleep. I contrast to the feeling of being left out and unappreciated, I also hate that my sleep is so unstable, that I can't make a real plan for next day. Everything depends on how I slept that night, if I got any sleep at all!...

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True friends are the best shrinks

Friends, I think we all know theese guys and girls from the TV-show, no matter how old we are. Besides that I like the show cause it has the perfect stupidity for my taste, I love the unconditional love that's displayed amongst the 6 people in the show....

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Feeling alone and rejected

By now I've tried SO many times to feel forgotten, unappreciated and unwanted. I would think, that I have got used to that by now, but I never really totally do....

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My brain with PTSD is like a pool game

The most frustrating is the memory loss. It gives me many practical challenges. I'm totally lost without my calendar and my phone....

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Live with a fixed schedule

Make yourself a daily routine, and stick to it, also during weekends.  This helps your sleep, digestion and doesn't make you body confused by flexing scheduled time....

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Who am I supposed to kill...

to get a little sleep around here??? The answer, I think, must be me!  Well let's not take THAT road!...

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Panic Attacks Summary

This page is build of keyword from "journal notes" and what I have experienced helps in the particular situation The details are discussed in several previous posts, this is meant as a fast overview. If you think something is lacking, please write to me, and I'll add it to the list...

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Herbal tea

I have skipped coffee and went straight to herbal tea several years ago. That was a huge improvement of my health and emotions, since I became less stressed. Now I only drink herbal tea, and why not benefit from all the witch doctors and see, what we can actually use in an effective way according to beliegvers of wicca or natural medicine. If I sound skeptic, don't just hurry along to the next subject - I'm a firm believer in this, because...

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My own reactions on low blood sugar

Bring it to the test when ready! That's kind of what "the Farmer" started out to do.  Now I do the same, when I read or hear something, that might seem as a solution on one or reaccuring problems. ...

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Blood sugar and emotions

I've read a story about a woman who was committed to the mental hospital for 3 years, until they finally discovered that she suffered from hypoglycemia, low bloodsugar....

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At the Hospital with mom

I haven't been at a computer for several days. Mom and I have been to the Hospital for her cancer surgery....

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Living with short time memory loss

With all the remedies we have in our household, it's easy to remember all tasks. Just put an alarm on the phone, and you're done.  ...

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At least buy me dinner first (Little steps)

It takes a lot of courage and self persuasion to fight against anxiety and depression. There's of course a difference, even though one us rarely seen without the othe...

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Blue lights makes sleepless nights

I've been reading about this several times : Blue light, the kind you get from monitors, TV, computer, phone etc is killing your sleep....

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