Depression and Anxiety returns

From one second to another, my job consultant took away all my progress. I was a bit exited before the meeting, cause now there might be a solution. Just the hope inside was enough to make me want to get out of bed, even when I was sick and feeling bad. Now I see no point in getting up, and I haven't really done anything productive since the meeting....

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The Job Consultant took away my hope

I've been at a meeting today(friday), where I thought I might be cleared to work. OMG they are incredible. They don't understand anything. Now I'm noted as having dementia, what the fuck is going on?...

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I can not breathe in clutter and dirt

I've had this feeling for quite some time: not being able to get enough oxygen. It's a normal feeling during anxiety attacks, but I have never felt it constantly. But now I do, most of the time....

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My mantra

This was a bit special for me... My friend from Quotes and Cartoons send me this mantra, that I sometimes use. Ive never seen it like this before, but it means a lot to me, so I thought I would share it with all of you....

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Health food to fight anxiety and depression

Today it was my weekly trip to the local vegetable pusher. I start to have a good variety of fruits and juices stuffed in the freezer. There's so many different fruits out there, the colors a wonderful, smell is fantastic and it's good for us. ...

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Social event with anxiety and depression as date

We're going to dinner and such with my boyfriends company. That's a challenge in itself, I really don't like to be in a room filled with people, I don't know, but normally I can handle it....

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Smoothies and au revoir to bad mood

I've been so sad, angry, tired and irritable lately, that I thought winter depression or seasonal affective disorder had hit me. I refuse to be so negative all the time, it doesn't make anything better anyway. So I'll force myself into a better mood and then: let's have a talk about smoothies....

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I am irritable and restless

I'm so tired and my mind wants to sleep, but my body disagrees. There's so much stuff going on inside of me this last month, that I'm totally confused. And exhausted. Because all these conflicting feelings I have inside confuses my mind even more, and I still haven't figured out the reason why. Sometimes I just want to cover myself up in a blanket and pretend, I don't even exist. In an attempt to find ease from the thoughts, I start a lot of projects, but don't stick with them for long. I simply can't hold my mind steady on one single project. My...

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The little things

(You can thank Google Blogger App for the lack of picture. I'm currently considering which platform to use, since Google apparently cant handle an update of the app...) Have you ever noticed little important stuff,  that during a day pops up and make you set anything else aside, to take care of it, like life depended on it(?)...

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