Covid followed by energy crisis
Gravity
The feeling of enthusiasm
I lost my passion
I wish someone would listen
Hes just not that into you
Thank you very much for your mails and suggestions of how to solve our problem in the bedroom.
I've read all your comments, cause I still have issues caused by my boyfriends comments and bad excuses to escape from having sex with me.
Some of you suggest I understand him. And I have tried.
I tried to understand.
I tried talking, yelling, screaming, telling him how much he hurt me.
I took him to a sex shop, and we bought a game.
We had sex 3 times, then a 3 month break.
Then I discovered he was watching porn morning, noon and before sleep, 3 times a day - and he had bought tools to pleasure himself (an artificially girly part, if you know what i mean)
He promised, he stopped, but our walls isn't sound proof, so...
I'm thankful for your suggestion, but I'm sorry to be the negative part here. But my experience is, he will do it again, and it'll hurt even more, cause now he is also lying to me.
If I dont leave, I'm scared, cause from now on the questions will start to pile up;
Why is he suddenly leaving early in the morning(?)
Why is he typing on the phone all the time?
Is he writing to another woman?
Wheres the third party limit?
Is it okay to look at bare naked ladies in aa magazine, to be watching porn?
Is it okay to write send heart hug emotion to another woman, okay to write sexual stuff to another person?
Where's there limit?
The eternal fight not to spiral down
Nothing left to say
Depression a lifesucking tornado
And so this is christmas
The brain seen like a mental equalizer
Silence after the storm
When a punch in the face would hurts less
After porn comes more lies