After porn comes more lies

After discovering the truth and confronting him, I really thought he understood how heartbroken I was, and he ofcourse claims, that he had thrown away the toys and stopped watching porn immidiately.First he seemed genuine and very understanding,  but...I'm such an idiot!Some time later on, I was looking at recipes and comparing 2. I decided to go for the first one, but couldn't get the recipe  back on the laptop. But history...

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Pornography shows its ugly face

After the worst excuses for buying sex toys I have ever heard, the storm calmed down. His excuses was simply too embarrassing! Hes a grown man, not a 6 years old!The bad excuses mad me feel even worse. 'Did he really think, I was stupid.'I simply shut up, thered no reason to continue a argument like that.A month or 2 later, I was collecting our pictures from the phones on an external hard drive, and meanwhile looking at pictures and short...

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3 or in the bedroom or what

I'm a bit shocked. Shocked to the point, where I totally shut down, I have nothing to say, and my so-called fiance most certainly has not either. I was cleaning the bedroom and found several sextoys for men back in his drawer. I don't sleep in the bedroom, but sometimes he does, cause he is "oh so tired and need to sleep early and sleep in quiet upstairs."I don't recall, what I was thinking at first. Sound was just a windy noise...

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A depressing problem

Deprssed or sad?We hear the expression "I'm so depressed" very often during daily basis. I'm so tired of it. Fed up. People obsessing over tiny problems, referring to this as a depression, having no clue what so ever what depression is all about. Sometimes I really have to remind myself, that "I'm just having a bad monday" - it doesn't necessarily mean, my depression is back. Sometimes shit just happens.. But listening to people complaining...

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