I often get emails from you guys out there, who feels totally alone and abandoned.
How do you move on, when you feel neglected, overlooked or even ignored?...
The purpose of life
I've been having a very bad period, where I've struggled to find a place for me in this world.
According to political decisions, I'm supposed to live with this salary for the rest of my life.
If that's the case, what do I see in the future(?)
My absolute favourite thing in the world is to travel. Not with any extravagance, no water how. That's totally out of range.
I'm sleeping on a couch in a house share, struggling to make ends...
Youtube Channel
I don't use YouTube much anymore, due to the heavy amount of advertisement, that jumps in, while I try to fall asleep.
I absolutely love Jean-Michel Jarre, but his music gets interrupted all the time.
Who can sleep through that(?)
However there's still some pieces of music, that has no interruptions.
CC has taken my playlist and made it public.
You find the YouTube playlist here.
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLLBuju34d75pk3Zt1z_ZvOJ1SrZNAz-Ez
(Or...
Dementia test
I've been at the doc for a dementia test today. I knew it wouldn't hurt physically, but emotionally I was SO scared, that I had to tell the nurse not to take notice of me crying, it's simply due to stress relief.
The very thought of suffering from dementia is do frightening for me, I think a bad result would finally break me for good and leave me with bot only a total mental breakdown - but simply finish me off for good.
And what's that...
I am worth nothing to other people
I hate not to know, where I'm going. What am I supposed to do, while I await other people's decision about my future(?)
What I hate even more, is how people treat me because of my disease - even despite my disease.
I'm apparently supposed to be their deck and call, if they are hungry, we need to eat now!
I never sleep in late, because they do, and someone needs to take care of the dogs.
Last week there were 4 days off, I didn't...
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