I wish someone would listen

I wish I was invincible instead of being ignored all the time.I thought a lot about this post, the first post in a very long time.I don't want you to leave this site empty handed, which I've got the feeling you have done for a long time.I haven't had a lot of news to share, Covid19, isolation etc didn't have a huge impact on me in the beginning. I'm used to be alone, I'm so used to have nobody to talk to, and especially used to noone...

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Hes just not that into you

Thank you very much for your mails and suggestions of how to solve our problem in the bedroom.I've read all your comments, cause I still have issues caused by my boyfriends comments and bad excuses to escape from having sex with me.Some of you suggest I understand him. And I have tried.I tried to understand. I tried talking, yelling, screaming, telling him how much he hurt me. I took him to a sex shop, and we bought a game. We had sex...

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The eternal fight not to spiral down

It seems I live my life constantly fighting NOT to go down, and the thought of being a sinking ship, it's actually a cause of a bit of anxiety.Also, when I'm spiraling down, I tent to fight to stay above ground and not fall into the hole of nothing. But that fight takes up a lot of energy.With Covid19/Corona, even I feel the lack of contact to other people now. Living isolated like this at home is very bad for my anxiety as well. Now...

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Nothing left to say

On top of being alone and isolated all the time, not just because of Corona, but because I had to sell my car. Being isolated is quite nomal for me.And on top of being ignored, shouted at, frozen out, left alone, told to move out, finding porn and sexual pleasurement for males in the bedroom, my Saturday went as follows...Today we had one fight in the afternoon, caused by his lies.In the evening, I thought we should be watching a movie...

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Depression a lifesucking tornado

Happy new year.Sorry to start without any huge enthusiasm, but each year I hope everything gets better - and I always get disappointed. So let's not take a walk thru that park again!I had a bit of a shitty day yesterday, now my BF is going back to work, and I can be very scared to be alone.I didn't want to annoy anyone with this, I'm so tired of feeling whining. So I called a friend who I trust equally as family, to get a lifeline. ...

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